New Years Resolutions? Blah!

All of this talk of New Year's Resolutions has got me going. I have so many this year, I don't even know where to start. I was thinking about them and realized that I'm just not motivated enough to do any of them. I really need to lose weight! I am the biggest I've ever been! Well, the non-pregnant me. I know I eat way too much and I snack like crazy. I was totally depressed during the month of December and lived off of Chocolate and sweets. I really really really want to lost weight, and have the motivation for a day, and then my aches and pains start and I feel tired and just give up on the idea. Then I was thinking about my next goal, and that's to be more patient with the kids. I think back to my mom and the other mom's in my life and don't remember them ever really yelling. I didn't start yelling until Sadee turned 2. And I realized the kids wouldn't listen for anything unless I yelled. But in all reality, they will if I keep being patient and just put them in time out over and over and over again. And those 2 things were as far as I got until I realized how awful I am at finishing the things I start. I get sicktracked very easily and have a hard time focussing when I get interrupted all the time. Of course I'm not complaining about the kids, because I love them to death. Sometimes I just wish they could go outside and play and let me get a few things done. When I was a kid, I stayed clear of my mom during the day and just wanted to do my chores so I could go play. But here in Plumas Lake, our kids rarely play with other kids. And if so, it's considered a "playdate." And it seems as though it has to be all planned out and whatever. Hopefully in our next neighborhood, the kids can just go outside and play with other kids, without making a big deal out of it. All I gotta say is I am so thankful for the childhood I had growing up, it was awesome! Anyway, while writing this, I have had literally 36 interruptions, and each time I lose track of my thought. So I would like to master that and learn to be able to focus on more than one thing at a time. I would also like to get organized better. But I won't even try that one until we live in our own home and can do whatever we want to it when it comes to shelving and what not. Anyway, so while looking at these things that I want to work on throughout the year, I noticed something was missing. Hmmm.... spiritual things? I do read my scriptures a few times a week, but that's not enough. I think if I focus on my spirituality, maybe the other things will fall into place more for me. And I'll have more motivation to do the things I need to do. I need to stop thinking that "I" have to do this and that and "I" need to overcome this or that. When I really need to be putting my faith in our Father in Heaven and Savior and ask them to help me overcome these things. I love New Years for the fact that it feels like a time of renewal, a new beginning, a fresh start. Jason pointed out to me though that we can have this feeling every week when we partake of the Sacrament. Of course I knew that. I used to thrive off of taking the Sacrament. But now I just pray to be able to feel the spirit or learn something or help someone while I'm at church. Anyway, this post probably makes no sense at all. I'm pretty much just rambling, and why? Oh, I've had 40 more interruptions while writing this. At least I know my kids love me and want to tell me every little thing they do. hahaha In all reality though, it'll probably take me another 45 years to "get it right" and master these things that I would like to master. I guess it's all about one little step at a time. But hey, if any of you want to come and show me how to do it, I'll let you! :-) I'm definitely a hands on learner.