And she's down!

So I haven't put too many updates about me and the pregnancy too much. I didn't want to complain and I haven't been in a great mind frame lately to talk to people about it. I started out with this pregnancy feeling fine and not even throwing up! Sooo nice! I was emotional and crying and stuff, but that was it. Then we got the stomach flu the week after our birthdays. And we had it for 2 weeks. After that point, I went down hill. I don't know why or what happened, but it literally wiped me out and ever since my body has been weird. With this pregnancy, I am exhausted! I've never felt so tired in my life. Well, I did when I had my endo, but that was the last time. But me being the stubborn person that I am, I continue to keep going and try to be tough. I was sitting in church a few weeks ago in sunday school and my heart started beating like crazy super fast. Then the room started spinning. I grabbed the guy in front of me who happens to be an EMT and said, come out to the hall with me. I walked out there and layed down and he took my pulse. 130. He monitered me and told me to just relax and close my eyes. My pulse came down but I was shaking like crazy. This wasn't a seizure at all, I just felt weak and I was shaking and apparently really pale. I never passed out, but when I opened my eyes there were a bunch of people standing around me! DOH!! I hate that kind of attention! I was so embarrassed! I ate some snacks and went out to the car. For the rest of the week, I wasn't able to move. I was down for the count!! Jason had to take the week off because I couldn't get the kids to school and I couldn't even feed my kids at home. I've had lots of tests and the baby is totally fine and likes to hang out on my left side. My EKG was normal and all of my blood tests except for my iron. Yep, I'm anemic. I was anemic while I had endo as well, so it explains why I'm so tired and also explains my palputations. So it's all good and I'm glad I know what's happening. But I'm still out of it and feel shakey, dizzy, and have a high heart rate. Most days, I just get the kids to school and literally do the bare essentials with the kids at home. I don't get anything done at home anymore and I'm not able to play a lot with the kids. Everyone keeps saying it's because I'm pregnant.... but the funny thing is, it has nothing to do with being pregnant. Well, a little of it is, but being down isn't. It's because I'm anemic people! Ay! Anyway, so that's life for us right now. There are some days that I'm able to get up and get some things done. And I cherish those days like crazy! But just cleaning up the living room or doing the dishes wipes me out. But I'm determined not to give up! I keep hearing my grandpa Meyer's and dad's voices in my head... "You gotta be tough, you gotta be tough." As for my emotions, oh boy, watch out. I am a wreck. I'll be crying one moment and then biting off your head the next. I'm not too tactful right now so I've found myself staying clear of people so I don't offend them. I do blame that one on the pregnancy. I still think I'm having a girl, I have to be! Anyway, here is a picture that Sadee took of me in my favorite spot. Yes, I look this bad all the time. But oh well, I don't care anymore. I'm just happy to be alive and have my beautiful children! BTW... it's like 1pm and yes, Elijah is still in his pj's and picking his nose. hahaha