It's always sunny after the storm

Trials and tribulations are an interesting thing. This week was a tough one for me. But thankfully I have a wonderful support system here in Plumas Lake that helps me and is totally here for me. I haven't had that in a long time! And I have a Father in Heaven that loves me and comforts me. I don't know what I would do without Him. My stresses might not seem as major as other peoples, but it is for me. I've noticed that each of us are fighting a battle within. We each have problems and trials that are major for us and no one has the "perfect life." But, it's up to us in how we react to our trials. I didn't react very well to mine this last week and ended up having a seizure on thursday. Yes, I still have seizures. Only 2 or so a year, but I have them. I still don't remember much about thursday. And my body is very tired and worn out from having it. It takes a good 2 weeks for me to get back to normal. It's all good though. Friday was a wonderful day because I was determined to make it that way. When I'm depressed and not feeling well, I have a tendency to curl up in a ball and not want to talk to anyone! But this makes my depression go deeper and deeper and it's harder for me to get out of it. So when I'm having a tough time, I try to just forget about myself and serve others. Just by picking up the phone and calling someone to see how they're doing. Or just by sending someone an email to let them know that I'm thinking about them. Do I want to do these things? NO! But I do it anyway, because that's what I need to do. Heavenly Father doesn't want us to be miserable. He wants us to be happy and selfless. When I'm selfish, I am miserable. When I'm thinking about MY house being a mess all the time, MY bank account not having enough money in it, MY health isn't good enough, MY kids aren't behaving the way they should, ME ME ME.... MINE MINE MINE.... life bites! Everyone is different and has different ways of coping. But for me, it's to forget about myself and to serve others. I don't have depression, but I have major hormonal imbalances! I've either been nursing or pregnant for the last 8 1/2 years. And sometimes both, like now. It's funny though because I received so many quotes this last week on trials and tribulations. First, my friend Erica Finlay sent one and then my daily quotes sent me one a few hours later. Then later that afternoon I received the Ensign that talked all of the same things. After reading them all, I did feel much better. It's amazing how Heavenly Father sends us things when we need them the most. The thing I've learned most of all this week is how I need to put ALL of my trust in the Lord and hand over my problems to Him. I tried to do this, but I guess I didn't try hard enough. I let other distractions get in my way instead of focussing on handing them over to Him. Because of that, my poor children had to see me have a seizure, without daddy being here to take care of everything. They had to step it up and take care of each other while mommy was passed out on the couch. I hate the thought of this happening to them. All because I didn't handle my stress in the proper way this week! I don't feel guilty, I am just trying to learn from my past so I don't do it again. Everything is fine now though. The nice thing about having seizures is that all of my stresses do leave me. Because I'm just trying to stay alive, so things don't bother me. So it's all good. I was so excited for today though! Sunday!! But last night I lost the van keys and the kids and I weren't able to go to church. But we tried to make the best out of it, instead of just sitting here ticked off at my airheadedness. We sang primary songs, had talks, prayed, had lessons and the kids made kitchen items from Jesus' time out of salt dough. So it worked out ok. Now I just need to find my keys so we can go on with our week. Fingers crossed! Thanks for reading my ramblings, they never make any sense to anyone else, but they always make me feel better! :-) Have a wonderful week!